prompt response: side a, track 18 
          "if we don't make it, we'll fake it" by dfa 1979

this song inspired the prompt: fakin' it: which inspired 1 response

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fakin' my smile when i want to scream
and i always want to scream
except for that month there
i was genuine laughter
and the kind of love that feels so thick
like you could just drown in it
and you want to tell everyone
to suck right from your heart
like it's syrup
because your cups runneth over
and your fountain overflows - but now
it's back to clenched teeth, gnarled hair, wild eyes
primatif
if you look at me, i'll growl
but if you don't, i'll go for the throat
and i'm counting my blessings
like some grocery list
but they're just words just letters
just symbols scrawled on some page
and the sweet and grateful
just disintegrates in the acid
of feeling wronged by what you do and do not do
and why can't i make my lips like a kiss
and blow out little word bubbles of love?
just a few days ago my fingertips were bleeding
horror movie blood- just sugary syrup words
now my heart craves the real thing
something real i could tear out of myself
to calm this storm of brain
less like a brainstorm
more like a hurricane
                                       - by Jenna Strauchen

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